When I was first coming to grips with my ADHD I wanted meds to fix me but I needed strategies to make me more productive.
I wanted a partner to love me for all my faults but I needed one who would help me improve upon them instead.
I wanted a son who would listen but I needed a son who would show me the parenting work I still had to do.
I wanted a blog to show me all the answers. I needed those narratives to keep me from the loneliness of our diagnosis.
I wanted an extended family who would support me in my decisions to parent differently, I needed an extended family that believed in me. Thankfully, that’s what I got.
I wanted a structured family life with organized rooms, chore charts and dinner at 6 sharp. I needed a flexible household that could bend with our sheer number of needs and not buckle under pressure.
I wanted to birth non-adhd children to show myself thatI was a good parent when a child was “easy.” I needed more adhd children to test my skills and ensure I understood my first born’s lessons.
I wanted an easy, breezy family life. I needed the reassurance that I was one bada$$ MF mom so my family life is complete chaos some days, especially these days.
I hope this quarantine is giving you everything you needed even if it’s nothing you wanted. See you on the other side.